I recreate myself... every day..... I Live outside comfort zone... Always.....
The
Journey of
NISHANT...
The journey starts from within. We all know that and let me share how it got started for me. And how I envisioned “To enable people achieve sustainable mental and financial stability”.
Until a decade back, I used to be a short-tempered, aggressive, fearful from inside, mostly stressed-out, forcing my preferences on everyone around, overworked and always searching for shortcuts and immediate results. Friday evenings used to be the beginning of the mirage, the weekend was an illusion which used to get over by Sunday noon.
Professionally, I was climbing new heights every day. Personally, from inside, I was turning into something else. I used to feel that I'm a victim of circumstances. Never got along with any of my bosses. Always blamed them for misery in my life. My stress and Anxiety was increasing with every passing day.
Reading self-help, motivational books were helping only on the surface, giving short-lived respite. It was like icing on the cow-dung. Looking good outside, but full of garbage inside. Anger, frustration, fear, short-temperedness were dominant emotions.
And then, one day, I realized that all my knowledge is of no use if I’m not at peace with my own self. And I decided to get help from outside. I decided to go for coaching. That one thought, one single step in the right direction put me on the journey to inner transformation.
As I moved ahead on that path, memories of past, hidden somewhere deep down, started to come out. Even those incidents which were completely wiped off my memories, started to run like a movie in front of my eyes.
A broken family, disturbed childhood, child abuse, rejections, I was living with all those wounds in my sub-conscious mind. As the saying goes, “who we are, is the sum total of our experiences.” Those experiences, good and bad, had shaped my personality.
As I moved ahead, trusting the process, the wounds started to heal. I started moving closer to my loved ones, inch by inch, every day. From being a strict father, I started becoming a friend to my kids. As the dominant characteristics were fading out, the space started to fill with gratitude and love for self. I started to forgive others and my own self, setting myself free. Free from my anger, guilt, sadness and fear, frustration, helplessness.
The process is still on and it will continue till the time I'm alive.
When I look back at what I was a decade ago, I appreciate and acknowledge myself, for the positive difference I have been able to create in my own life.
But none of the tools or techniques, or any amount of knowledge would have helped if I had not gone out seeking help or if I had not become coachable (at least that’s what my mentors and coaches said). And, most importantly, if I had not stopped my own analysis of the situation and fallen into the analysis paralysis trap.
My own journey helped me connect to my purpose - To enable people achieve sustainable mental and financial stability. I'm living to serve the people.
Now when I ask myself – Am I hungry? Yes, I am, to fulfill my purpose.
Am I happy? Oh yes, I am. Definitely, irrespective of the circumstances.
And am I humble? Well, I leave this question to my near and dear ones again, as I’m still not qualified to answer this question.. 😀